Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Who is Jamerican?

Sometimes I don't know, lol.

Am I a Black Nationalist?

Absolutely not. I have an appreciation for both of my cultures- Jamaican and African-American. I don't believe that either of my cultures are superior to anyone else's. However, loving my Blackness is in and of itself a political act. So much has been done to destroy the self-esteem and self-worth of Black people. It has become obvious to me that if I don't love blackness or work for the betterment of the Black community than no one else will. Just because I'm Muslim doesn't mean that I can ignore the meaning that skin color or race has in American society. By the same token, I can't ignore the fact that it has meaning in the Muslim community either.

Also, I don't think that being a Muslim means that I have to become absorbed in Arab or other cultures that are dominant in the Muslim community. I can appreciate Kufta, the Arabic language, Biryani or Abayas with the best of them but it doesn't make either of those things an Islamic obligation on me. I'm not a Blackistani nor am I a Black Arab...

Am I a Feminist?

I don't identity myself as a feminist. Yes, I'm all for the rights of women and will stand up for them whenever I can. I am sickened by the amount of sexism I see in American society and also in the Muslim community. I feel it is my duty as Muslim and as woman to challenge sexism whenever it rears its ugly head. I am bothered by non-Muslims who wish to "liberate" me by persuading me to "de-hijab." At the same time I'm irritated by Muslims who place too much emphasis on hijab and purdah. No one's strictly enforcing men's dress codes.

TRUE STORY: After Jumah last Friday I was about to offer my sunnahs. I happened to look down into the brother's area (from the balcony where the women pray behind a two-way mirror)and was faced with a horrid sight! A full view of a brother's butt crack as he went into sujud! Yuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Obviously some brothers could benefit from a discussion on dress requirements for Muslim men.

What is my educational background?

I have a BA in African-American Studies from the University of Minnesota (Twin Cities.) Insha'allah, I'll complete my thesis someday soon. Then I'll have an MA in African New World Studies from Florida International University(Miami.) As you can tell, I'm pretty interested in the study of Black people across the Diaspora. Up until recently, I was a facilitator for small group discussions on race.

What is my Islamic leaning?

As you know by now, when I first took shahadah I was heavily influenced by the Salafi movement. I never called myself Salafi and didn't even know such an ideology existed but it governed my complete understanding of Islam. (I also had close friends who were in the Tablighi Jamaat so I had that influence as well). After "taking a break" from Islam for nearly five years, I began practicing again in 2000. Now I'm striving to be a person "of the middle way." I don't want to be too strict or too loose. You could say that I'm still trying to find the balance.

Do I think I'm a weird person?

Sometimes. I have eclectic set of tastes in food, music, and hobbies. I like to think I'm as quirky as the average person. I'm probably a bit too studious for my own good. (Even as a child my mom said she'd always find me in a corner curled up with a book and a writing pad). Admittedly, I can be a bit of a perfectionist (just ask my friends) and I can be quite demanding (just ask my husband) but I mean well...

Something I've some to accept about myself:

I'm Bourgeois or "Booshie" as Black folks folks call it. Unlike a good friend of mine (you know who you are!) I realize that paying five dollars for a single cupcake, preferring Gelato to regular old ice cream, and refusing to go to bed without my sleep mask are instant qualifiers.


What improvements would I like to see in the ummah?

In a nutshell I'd like to see all of us (that includes me) make a conscious effort to live up to the Islamic ideals the Prophet Muhammad (s.a.w.) has set forth for us. It's difficult but I think we can all do more.

That'll be all for now.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Assalamu wa alaikum, sister. I love your blog, and the honesty with which you examine everything. I read your blog everyday.

Even though we are not from the same culture (I'm desi), I have lived here all my life, and I really can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I really felt it when I read the blog about your experiences in Chicago.

It saddens me that we as muslims have so many divisions and expectations from those who we know to be muslim. No one applauds the ones who try their best to uphold their religion.

Anyway, I won't make this too long, but I want to tell you that I hear ya!!! Insh'Allah, we must strive to be the muslims in the middle way. (PS: I love listening to all kinds of music too...and if that's haram...well...there are worse things to be doing.) I wish you the best! ;-)

~Farhana

Jamerican Muslimah said...

Walaikum salaam wa rahmatuallah,

Thanks for stopping by Farhana. I'm happy to hear that you can relate to my experiences. Makes me feel like I'm not alone. You know I'm totally with you on the music...I just don't see myself stopping any time soon.

aayah said...

Salaam alaikum sister, I just wanted to say that I love your blog and I love you. The post about selling haram in the hood was really on point too! my husband plans to share it at the masjid, so we hope inshallah for it to do some good.
You know Elijah Muhammed warned his followers not to become "arabs" but to become "muslims," meaning that all too often, when we revert to islam, we think that means adhering to arab culture and dress. So not true!!! I hate when muslims expect me to abandon my culture for theirs just b/c i am a muslim. ugh!!!
anyway, keep posting. i love your honesty and that you're not scared to be yourself no matter what other muslims may think!!! great taste in music btw.

peace,
aayah
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J said...

Booshie? We always pronounced it "Booogiee" ... lol